An embarrassing start to my new school

            After I got admitted to my new school in class 3, I had to face lots of  problems. Its quite obvious, as I had to adjust myself  to the new classroom, new teachers and of course the new friends of mine.

            Let me tell everyone, I am a bit taller than my age, so people always misunderstand me to be older than I am actually. And with this issue the problem started.My friends used to call me 'dada' sometimes, though according to date of birth I was younger to them. I felt quite embarrassed.The worst part is that even some teachers used to say me 'a big boy'. I could not make friends except the one who sat beside me in the classroom. I used to sit alone during the tiffin time with an inner conflict in me whether I am really a big  boy to them or it was just out of fun. Life was really becoming miserable for me.

            And to add to the woes came another issue that really shattered my heart. I have dark skin complexion. I used to travel by school bus. And my favourite seat was at the back of the bus where I sat alone and observed my town. But there also someone had problems with my privacy too.  There were some seniors who used to sit at the back of the bus. They used to bully me continuously and call me by funny insulting names. Everybody used to make fun of me especially of my skin colour. This incident had taken a great toll on my mind. I was  quite heart broken but never did complain to my parents. I always used to tolerate everything. But some day all my tolerance got over and I cried helplessly in my mother's arms. Then my dad knowing everything from me took drastic steps and  asked the principal of the school to punish the boys who used to tease me by my skin colour. The principal did punish them severely.And I never got teased again.

              But there's a saying that- Mind of a child is like clay ball.Clay ball takes the shape as it is moulded.  Similarly mind of a child goes in the way where it is directed. These two issues took a great toll on my mind. Today I am  in the best college of Kolkata pursuing a great  career. Today my friends praise about my stature and physique. But somewhere  somehow in my mind I still have that inferiority complex that I am ugly looking. And still now,everynight  I wake up from my sleep and  wash my face with cold water. I look at myself in the mirror and ask it, " Am i really ugly??".  I know all these are really stupid but I couldnot overcome it.